Link and Labels

I get fascinated with black color all the time. How did one color can sometimes be seen as gloomy, and sometimes sophisticated? Was it because there is some kind of elegance in every darkness? Was it because is somehow sorrow  defined the beautiful soul? It is the color for lazy day, and also a color fit your grand day. Hence, it is true. You never go wrong with black.

Hey. I did it. I said goodbye. I m gonna laugh really hard, smirk with love, if one day in the future you casually want to be back in my frame of life. You had casually let me out from yours. It hurts me pretty bad. It scars me more than you ever know. I am gonna naturally move on.  I do wish all the best and happiness for you , but more than that I wish one fine day out of nowhere, no reason and no occasion you will suddenly think of me and realized that I cut you  off because you handed me the scissors.

One of the main reason I keep missing my old  me or my old life are probably that was when I dont think much on what other might say or think bout me. Plus, being me is so easy when it is not related to any other people. My action, my choice of words, my choice of outfits  will be all mine and mine alone. Trust me, there will more things I would say if I am on my own. There will be more things I will randomly do just because I want to. Yeah. I am random like that. Because  I am someone's  wife ,I no longer can be some people friends. Because I am someone's  mom ,my choice of outfits have to cater that image. To certain people, that come naturally. To certain people, it is their choice. To other some, their acceptance of adulthood are widely embraced. But not to me. I struggled. I keep conflicting my choice. I unwillingly tolerate , that keep on making me wanting to go back to being the carefree me. Which obviously can only happen in my mind or probably my dream....

Zero people would actually read this. This is the one where I play with words because I like it that way. Remember that seven years ago, I was busy living life? It was fun. I hardly hang out with people more than six because I hate how it can disrupt the flow of the conversation. Usually it is three.  During those years at nine o clock, night hang out were just started. Eventhough just talking, were having fun till midnite . There was this one time,I went to open concert, then hang out at mamak till past five a.m .  Wow that one hell crazy night, we were singing with Backstreet Boyz ,you all. I miss these two. The lepak lepak and me.