When I am ready

hello Darling.

you are making me confuse.

I dun get your actions.

I dun understand your words.

Cant seems to push you away.

I am in denial.

Keep telling my ownself that I am ok and I will be ok.

Trying to enjoy the moment without actually take things seriously.

but I failed.

Acted  as if it was nothing,

I fake a smile and keep playing the character of the coolest person on earth.

The truth is

 I drafted thousands of questions to ask

But I just dun dare to listen to the answers.

I have numbers of doubt in every single words I heard

But I keep pretending that I wasnt even listening.

I guess I just need to gather some courage.

To stop caring and start ignoring.

I will.

When I am ready.